Really though, the question must be what was it like for Emily after not seeing her dad for 3 years - it's all too easy to slip into how this affects you as the parent and if not forget the child, forget they have been put into the situation you are in.
I'm not going to say visitation went well because I don't think it did go well; but this masks the simple delight in spending time with someone you love very much after such a separation. Stripping out the extraneous matters - Sheila and Paul the gorilla boyfriend, being threatened and having a cloud of fear and apprehension hanging over your head, then what you are left with is Emily and her infectious giggling and laughing.
Judge Doyle got one thing right - "Children do as they're damn well told!" - and after the two of us had gotten past the, "You're Karl, Paul is my daddy!" phase, Emily settled down very quickly and was busy smacking me on the butt because I was too busy tickling her while playing Dad and Daughter tag in the hotel - something I remember doing with my nan when I would run and "hide" under the newly made bed covers or behind the sofa after sticking a clothes peg on my sleeping grandfather's nose :)
The emotions for both of us, bottled up for so long were all present in super concentrated dosage; looking at the pair of us playing, walking along the beach, chatting with hotel reception or messing around at the Waffle Shoppe diner, you would not have known we had not seen each other for so long.
Emily is my little girl and at 7 years of age, she knows I'm her Daddy; she cannot openly say she loves me, nor during her time with me did she bring herself to say it except for one occasion while when it was time to go back to mom, her demeanour changed automatically as the situation did - Children do as they're damn well told, and Emily it is clear, has been told how to behave with me by her mom and no doubt, others around her.
But when she's with me and away from these influences, she's free to be daddy's little girl and she knows it but is like a caged animal when being released - the cage door is opened and there is that short period of disbelief that you're really free to leave which as soon as the moment is seized results in elated scampering and enjoyment of freedom.
What was it like to see Emily after 3 years?
An utterly unbelievable and extremely happy time tainted by the fear of Sheila and her boyfriend.
8 comments:
Karl,
I'm sorry the visit wasn't better - and that Emily was harboring the confusion of the situation.
But I'm glad you DID get to see your girl.....and I'm sure your hearts a little lighter because of it.
Hi Karl
Don't ever allow this woman, her latest boyfriend (or the next!), to 'taint' the clearly beautiful time you spent with Emily.
They can tell her what they like about you; they can put ideas into Emily's little head about her latest "Daddy" but Emily KNOWS who she just spent time with; Emily KNOWS how she feels about you: no matter what they tell her; and Emily will one day be able to voice her own opinions about this woman and what she's done/doing to her.
MOTHER's make sacrifices to do the right thing by the children they love. This woman appears intent on doing all that's wrong. However, you and Emily may rest assured that she will not prosper by it!
writing your own postings once again
a minute apart
I, too, have a daughter named Emily (who is nine) who has PAS. I feel the same pain.
Just count that as one small victory for your daughter and you. Those victories, even if small, are priceless. Like REO Speedwagon sung, keep pushin' on! Don't EVER give up!
Chris - I personally like to think, "Keep on loving you because it's the only thing I can do." is very apt too.
Karl
Karl, I, too, experience the full joy of times when I am alone with my son...and as soon as time comes to return to his dad, I see him harden and put up an emotional barrier. I know it has nothing to do with me, and rather, this is his way of coping with a very difficult emotional situation.
Sometimes the only solace I can find is knowing that he and I love each other deeply, and I'm thankful he still shows it. I believe in karma...I keep waiting...when will it all turn around?
chicago your ass bud
INS aint giving you a greencard
Great to see the two of you together.
The gorilla will no doubt get his comeuppance when she dumps him :o)
Post a Comment