Thursday, April 09, 2009
Sitting in North Carolina after a couple of days driving and deliberating on matters.
Finally, I got to see Emily after 3 years and we had what was a happy time but also deeply disturbing and for both Patsy and I, at times frightening.
Firstly, we arrived in Panama City full of expectation only to be confronted by a brute of a man in the shape of "Paul"; Sheila's current boyfriend, who burst into near hysteria with what he was going to do with me and so on - apparently I like hitting women - and Emily is right there when this kicks off.
Sheila sits and smiles - she's wound the poor bugger up and now his testosterone is kicking in and he wants to give me a good kicking as a consequence - consequence for her if he does - nothing!
I left as soon as I could skidaddle out of there with Emily in tow only to look round and this ape is now giving the same treatment out to Patsy.
Patsy rejoins us and we get back to the hotel - surprise, surprise - "Paul" claims to be a policeman!
Shades of Volusia County Sherriff and Captain Osowski spring to mind - Florida law enforcement have a particular breed of brute which populates their ranks - walking hard-ons with badges and guns - the best policing a blowjob can buy.
The week passes by trying to make the connection with each other - a deeply conflicted little girl who calls you "Karl" because you are not "Dad"; that's Paul these days because Mom says "We both love him very much."
A deeply curious little girl who is full of questions - why did you hurt mom, the judge says you have to go when you see me, why are you a bad man?
I'm buggered if I know the answers to give under the circumstances, I've never really understood how deeply and truly evil this parental alienation stuff can really get nor how easy it is to perform without any repercussion from anyone.
Maybe my name is Lucifer!
Now I have seen Emily, something I've worked bloody hard to achieve for so long, I ask myself the question,
"Why do I feel so utterly depressed and so exhausted I'm seriously questioning whether I should just walk away and concentrate on the family I can be a part of?"
Then I look at this:
Posted by Emily's Dad at 1:41 AM